Another Year Later...

I had been to college and out. I made it through a whole year. Did not mean I dropped out. My course had just ended, now having a break from study, awaiting for results. In any case, I do hope I pass and graduate. Sweat back to those who sweat me.

Remember, life should be enjoyed and for that we need to eat. Not too little of it too. Tell me how else would we have the energy to do anything? Say, to work the muscles from the shoulder to the wrist, or to stand? A game of badminton would tire you out easily in less than half of a session. You would feel like falling to the ground and lying motionless there. But, you do not want to faint! No! Hell no, you fight it! There is no other way than to retreat from the battlefield court, and to catch your breath by gulping in water and by having a fan blowing in your face. The mind works hard for a way to gain homeostasis and be refreshed, in which it needs oxygen. So, oxygen is required to think how to achieve oxygen debt. I don't know how that works. It's so confusing. Anyway, you want that oxygen to metabolize lactic acid, to replenish ATP and glycogen, and so on. In summation, you need air, or maybe food is what you need. Then, the mind would not trick you into wanting air.

Live to eat! I'm getting out of track there, going all over the place. Ha! You think I'm relaying what I've learnt from my study in college. *Leaves you wondering.*

Can it be that the headache I'm having now is meddling with my mind, or killing it slowly? Gotta go now. Perhaps I have yet to achieve oxygen debt. Still, could be the aftermath of anxiety over finals. The consequence of facing the screen every day?

I need to go into the unconscious mind - stage four of sleep.

Coming Right Up!

Yo. If you still haven't found out about it, we're having Earth Hour tonight on earth.

In Anticipation

March 11, 2010


With hearts thumping loudly in our own chests and bulging eyes ready to pop out of our heads (in waiting for the teachers to call our names to be handed the results), our minds are filled with giddyness. Some of us eager. Some of us desperate. Some of us (me) stricken with nervous breakdowns not wanting the results to be released, wishing the slips would be left alone.
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The inspiring rushes have gone. I don't feel like continuing it.

Single-Tasking Day

It is today (I think).

Multi-tasking is ineffective, and may cause brain damage! I do it most of the time without having much thought about it, which it probably shows why I lack concentration.

Multi-Tasking = Being Less Mindful
Single-Tasking = Being More Mindful

I have now decided to perform less multi-tasking. I desire to embrace the moment and to live in it. That way, hopefully, i will be more focus and on the way to becoming more mindful.

I am going to close the five sites I have opened in my browser.

In joy,
Jo

Jan Joanne

It's my birthday today. Did you know?


"Whatever with the past has gone, The best is always yet to come." - Lucy Larcom


I expect a quiet one this year, not knowing why, perhaps because I feel tired from doing no good for a long time now. Too long. I won't disgrace myself much further here. I've no pictures up because I haven't been outdoors.


But, here's a couple.

Lesson of the day : What is the opposite of IN?

Big clown.

“Well, birthdays are merely symbolic of how another year has gone by and how little we've grown. No matter how desperate we are that someday a better self will emerge, with each flicker of the candles on the cake, we know it's not to be, that for the rest of our sad, wretched pathetic lives, this is who we are to the bitter end. Inevitably, irrevocably; happy birthday? No such thing.” - Jerry Seinfeld

I Lost My Senses

Where oh where are my senses?
My perception is off dropping all of my defenses
Against being clear-headed and gaining some sagacity
I am inflated full of vanity


January 19 is the 19th day of the year in the Gregorian calendar.


At least, I didn't lose my sense of the date today, after rechecking it.

New Year's Eve

This is a better New Year's Eve post. That's why I titled this post instead of the previous one.






Roads in some parts of the city were closed. You can see people walking everywhere.

We were waiting for countdown at a crossjunction.

A balloon freed into the sky. I was watching it float happily up until it looked like a tiny dot in the dark sky. Then I noticed a couple nearby also had their heads up. Watching people watching the world is my favourite thing to do.

Can you spot it?

People were spraying artificial snow on each other the whole night. Those who weren't tried to get out of the way hoping to stay clean. A couple of times they turned it into a massive fight.

After the countdown and fireworks ended well past midnight, people were still partying out on the roads.

On the night of New Year's Eve, I was walking around the city of Kuala Lumpur (KL) with my family. I may not have known it myself but I sometimes have a childish fantasy that people in general are virtuous, maybe even a tiny bit. What someone has done for me to live in sorrow proves me to be wrong.

As I stepped out one of the malls in the busy city and joined the hoo-ha outside getting ready to welcome the new year just a few hours away, I was temporarily separated from my family, lost amid the crowd. I thought I felt someone opening the zip of my bag which I carry behind me but I wasn't sure. I slowly turned my head around, my hand reaching to confirm my thought. Lo and behold, it was open. I gave a quick check to the contents of the bag and found the camera to be missing. At first, I didn't believe it, or I didn't want to believe it. I double-checked but it was of no use. The cam is beyond doubt gone. No way I would ever get it back to my possesion.

My heart was cussing. After some time, I cooled down feeling an iota of pity for the pathetic dude (or could be a woman. I think a she was behind me at the time I was sandwiched between strangers.) I pity him for lacking love for another being by making a choice to take away a person's belonging which happens to be a favourite and also costly. It may not worth much to some of you but it is to us poorly financed. Most especially to my mum being the biggest worrier in the family. She was full of ifs, if only I had carried my bag in front of me, if my brother had been walking right behind me, if I had handed the cam to my dad to hold earlier. My dad is the opposite of my mum. He had just accepted the situation as it had happened because it was knowingly well we could not do anything about it and could not deny the fact that what had happened had already happened. We should just let it go.


So, now I can only take photographs using my camera phone.

I Am Refreshed

What a bummer. I have been wanting to blog since days but now that I finally get to it, I lost all inspiration and ideas to spit out here.


Perhaps I shall tell about the freshness I'm in to right now. Check out Freshness Factor Five Thousand.


I won't elaborate more. Imma get myself more freshness.


Happy New Year's Eve's Eve.

1 Year Later...

Today is the 12th of December, 2009.

It's been exactly one year since my last post in this blog that I've abandoned on purpose as I know I won't have the time and convinience to blog for the year. Oh scratch that. I've just checked and it's actually another week to go to be one year. Haha.

Anyway, I don't really have anything else to tell. I just wanted to tell one thing.

Today is the 12th of December, 2009.